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Saturday, December 13, 2008

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 13:05:05 GMT

All in all, 3 of my friends passed away in 2 years. A question is still swinging in my head, "are these all TRUE?" This is, again, another heavy time that bears down on me although it may not seem to be related to my life.

Vividly still be in my memory the day when Zion delivered the sad news about Jonia and vividly still be in my memory the day when I sobbed in the funeral of Mr. Chan.Time is yet short for my memories to fade when the story seems to repeat itself for another episode; a tragedy that none likes and all sigh.

Some months ago, father and I went to the columbarium wherein my grandpa's ashes are kept. His face has been fading and the only complexion left in my mind is the one on his cinerary urn, still grinning but no longer clear. I wonder if I can still regconise him in the future when I become too old and frail.

Previously rotating in Kwong Wah Hospital, I clerked a patient with Parkinson's disease, just as my grandpa did, who in many ways was reminiscent of my grandpa; though how much different would it be were the patient truly be him.

When the news of one's demise reach my ear, time tracks back himself to the day when I last saw the face of my grandpa at the back of the funeral hall, so emaciated that barely resembled him. So much funny time and laughers burst out around my ears as time goes back more; he is holding my hands, walking from Sunday Yum-cha with grandma, sometimes he even makes jokes although he seldom smiles. (now I realised it was caused by Parkinson's disease) Recollecting all these and all in a sudden it comes to a halt; I realise myself without grandpa around and never would he be around anymore, leaving me in despair and silence.

Time keeps his own pace and has never stopped; I should well be on my feet and carry on with my steps forward.

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 04:32:19 GMT

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Sun, 18 May 2008 13:07:15 GMT

子在川上曰。逝者如斯乎。不舍晝夜。

One needs not be like Confucius to fathom the quintessence of his words, needs not be like poet Li Bai to discern the affective facade of all humane parts of life. I myself, likewise, do see the rushing pace of each second but vainly keeping up with it at my full strain; at times, even toppled down and trampled over by its relentless steps.

Can we take a brief rest and a deep breath for some while, Time?

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 08:29:34 GMT

The departure of one means so much to me, at least, for I know it by heart.

One after another, is it a mere coincidence? I cannot tell, at least, for I am a mere man.

Lord once told Thomas, "I go to prepare a place for you." Follow what path will we reach that place, one that is of glory yet unforeseeable with all secular eyes, of eternity yet unreachable to all worldly lives? The answer, for sure, will not reveal to us in days or years, but hold it in faith and we might get it one day.

To The Lovely Lady and The Respectable Teacher

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 16:52:22 GMT

This summer vacation has evoked my thoughts so deeply, hit home at my heart!

2 of my friends passed away, in an utterly same way.

A girl with invincible determination to bring love and warmth to whoever might come across her; brought with her a radiant smile and sprightly existence from the small and poor country of East Timor to LPCUWC, consoling hearts of many; Jonia, she has left us in an accident in another continent which shall never again enjoy the privilege to receive her grace.

A competent paterfamilias nurturing an adorable daughter with all his love, a caring teacher nourishing his students with all his might and main, a humorous man neglecting his own dignity to bring about the laughter of others, my respectable Mr. Wong has left us today in yet another drowning accident. His terrestrial life has come to a sudden end in the midst of gloom, resembling his name 蒼茂.

Life comes easy not, time we treasure ought.

Friday, February 02, 2007

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 08:32:18 GMT

午後興之所至. 欲為詩. 或曰蓮子心中苦梨兒心內酸. 此一語動吾心. 拙筆濺墨. 便成<<蓮兒苦>>. 欲以之道孝. 告世人樹欲靜而風不息子欲養而親不待之理.

<<蓮兒苦>>

盛夏蓮花開滿塘.

蓮兒長在蓮花上.

未知秋來花將去.

但見花兒日漸長.

月過夜長秋風至.

落紅沒在塘中央.

花兒難挽花母身.

終留萬憾苦其腸.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 10:34:38 GMT

Back at dormitory. A bit stagnant.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 13:08:55 GMT

What an experience!

The first earthquake ever felt in my life!

At around 8:30 pm, while I was surfing on the internet and my sister was reading, I suddenly felt myself swinging from side to side, slowly but strongly. I thought it was my heart beating too fast as if I had just finished a vigorous exercise, I only realized it was an earthquake when my sister asked me if it was shaking. It continued for around 10 minutes with an interval of about 30 sec or so between every strong shake.

I was so scared!

Friday, December 22, 2006

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 12:04:13 GMT

Exam is over at last! Back at home. I am no longer tormented by the aura of intensive study in the dormitory, at least for the coming 2 weeks of holiday. Finally, life becomes much more colourful again with all the "tidbit" back at home; I can do whatever I wish to, watching TV, idling and so on.

Yesterday night, I made a sudden decision to go to the mentorship gathering. The sharing from my mentors and other mentees has been so delightful, making me yearn for clinical years more than ever! Down in my heart, nothing at the moment is felt different from when I was still a high school student; or better say I don't feel myself a medical student at all. Probably this is due to my limited clinical exposure at the moment, just as Professor Sung said he found himself more like a doctor during his clinical year working in the Obstetrics and Gynaecology Department.

It has to be years before I can be a real doctor. My holidays will certainly diminish with time.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 15:24:36 GMT

An extraordinary day in this exam period! The first unusual thing was studying with Ray in Franklin canteen through the day from 1 pm to 7 pm. We planned to study their during lunch time, but it turned out to be a whole day study! Second unusual thing was coincidentally meeting KTMC teachers in the very place! Lau Lin Fung, Tam Chi Pui and his family, Mrs. Man, Wong Mui Yung and so many others! Had a short chat with them and knew that they were on the PTA's first trip of this year, I bet they must be very exuberant as hinted on their unanimously jaunty complexions. I, too, was delighted to see them in this yet another new place of study; after all, to be parted from KTMC for 2 years is not a short time, and things have changed so much for me but seem to be more or less unchanged for them. The only thing I am sure at this moment is my life will not be changing for the coming 5 years, yet the other side of the coin is to live without any more refreshment. Stability and Mobility are always compromised.